For give

I awake anew and reborn in my sin.
A child playing with fire...
I love you,  my secret savior.
You'll never know how you set a blaze my world.
I'll never tell you, how I was dieing.
I'll never tell you,  how the light inside of me had faded.
And in the arms of your drug...
I was reborn.
I screamed for life,
To indulge once more in pleasure,
To feel...
To feel...
I felt, good.
I remembered all I had forgotten...
And you came,
Unknowing to save me,
That night...
One night, was all I needed.
And I'll never ask you for more.
I am greatful.
I forgave, my self. 
I forgave life.
I loved,  and breathed and existed with out expatiation. 
Saved one night,
Under the blue ocean...
Inside the green stars....
Freedom, I was born unseelie. 

the unfeeling

I do not see,
I do not know...
I can not tell how the worlds feelings flow.
I up and down,
I never turn...
I do not see,
I can not learn.
I am a piece broken from the whole...
I do not fit...
I do not know.
They are alien,
They are strange,
I want to feel them,
but I am estranged.
I am not whole,
but in pieces which can not reconstruct
but for moments on drugs,
and moments of luck.
I do not see,
I am not sure...
what you feel
how life as it was were.
I will never know,
I can not see,
I can not grow.

the unseelie knight

like a crashing waterfall
cold and strong he comes now to rescue me,
right of rescue that I am due.
someone to make everything new...
someone to hold and to die in.
someone to burn and shine bring in.
like a cliff that i stand before,
open wide and unknown he comes now to rescue me,
my unseele knight,
champion of indulgence.
he him self is not,
he knows not what he has done,
brining new light under the moon where the sun can not shine...
bringing new hope to a life what was hopeless.
I was about to fade,
to soften,
to forget...
but I remember now the highs match the lows,
all of life is an ebb and flow...
and like a bird i take flight this night
out from under my skin
out from the places where darkness began...
and i dance...
freedom in movement.
and i dance...
for all my soul to sing.
and I go crashing...
and I go unshackled...
and I am...
saved.

the feeling

take everything from me

that i can be free

take it all that i have nothing to fall from

take away all the things which hurt

which lurk

which want to drag me through the dirt

take it all away

and in its place leave me with nothing more than this feeling

this bliss under sound

this unrefined joy tucked into my heart

love, for loves sake.

the feeling it comes over me

it rolls into me

it crashes against the world 

and in it,

and in you,

and in this

i am free