poems from the drive home from burning man

Come here child and rest your body in the chill and reprive of my oasis
replinish your spirit and fill your self of inspired dreams and passions
touch here and lay in the wine staned sheets of my bed
drink and be full in exastacy, in joy
be new, be born, be life,
and find that it is not in my pleasure i scream and gasp, and moan
but in the sight of your eyes your breath your sweat and cum,
it is those, that i come here and stand before you demanding.
look into me and see how full i am, too over spill
take then some of my excess passion and make it your own,
and in that moment know how much i love you.
i love, and desire and want you.
let me fill you with all that passion, so built up in my skin
let me bring you too, to the point of break,
full and sated in my wine, and in my drugs
lay here my brother, my child, my love
and i will push you out of the night
i will paint the blue stars golden and i will show you the sun

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to kate

lay here waking beauty,
little framed godess of the mornign fun cripled by last nights adventures
but more beautiful than anyone.
and as the sun starts rising, and the water desire grows,
shake and tremble like the beautiful buding rose.
and in your moments of desire
be true and be strong
and let the passion roll over you as were it never wrong,
and you will be so beautiful to bring men and women to one knee
they will beg and bother to catch a glipse of your beautiful dancing free
and in the subble curves of your breast and colour in your skin
you make a little poet run out of words to describe the many sins
the ways that one could touch you
to make you make the sounds you do,
the taste and the smell and the passion id find wraped up in you,
and as the sun set and i crawled into your bed
i could not shake the image sturing in my head.
so out here it flow in the moments of this week,
i try to find the words but all of them seem weak
i have no way to say all the beauty that you are
or the things id do if this went very far...
but i can say that it is true, you are beautiful and there should be 1000 poems writen of you.



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muse

rapture me,
and bring me shaking to the ground
in the tight twisting body
in the gasping panting sound
take up by body and turn the world around.
desire me,
as i were all the woman in the word
for the moment that you see me
and the short time this existis
bring me to my knees in pleasure and in bliss.
inspire me,
and i will for ever be yours
untill the day you dont want me
i will come to match your passion with my words

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muse be gone

my hands are old now
dry and scared and gray
they touch the wire as tho it will roll away
my hands are clumbsey now
they fumble and they fail
they dont know how to make and they have forgoten how to sail
my hands are tired now,
soar and worn and used
they can not be an artist becuse they have more moer muse




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to the morning

Part I - the stary blue

this darkness comes and touches me
it makes me scared and it makes me cold
this darkness, it is loney
and i fear it is here in the isolation of the night
that i will die alone.
its been so long that i have locked my sin away
i have kept it at starving and let the colors all grow to gray
and now i fear and wory that i will for ever be that way.
i think that i may be broken to far beyond repair
this darkness is growing soon they gray will be black
and then there will be no hope of tunring back

Part II - the keeper of the light

(unfinished will post latter)

and be here when i get home

its the cold rustling rage that fills me

that cuts deep into my bones

and makes me leak out these burning tears

i dont want to make these choices

choices for things that will never work

things that will betray me

that will betray you

what if the moon rises and i stay by its side for all my life

will the sun never shines on me again

what if the heart mends and the soul betters

will i never know the smile of the morning

will you be betrayed golden sunshine

if the night heals and im whole in my life as it is?

i dont want to change this world

but it cant stay this way forever

dreams

here comes the dawn,

crawling up over my body as voices and noises stir

stay here my love

tucked tightly warm in this desert of heat

warm in this burning fire of fear

stay with me now,

let us never wake

let us never stir as your body rests against mine

rest here now,

in this moment of peace

a break for the war the rages on in my life

you are my oasis come true

you are the man built of dream stuff and clouds

you are the sun coming out in the night,

that i may never fear the dark again...

i love you my golden sunshine

i miss you every second my sky is overcast and you are away from me...

never leave and i will always stay

a beautiful thing (will sp lattr )

to each new morning,

i rise and meet a world with out you.

i miss the smell of your skin,

the corked twist of your grin

the age of your hands

the weathered feathered framing of your eyes,

but tucked safe into my heart

i keep all the beautiful moments of our shared life...

Siting in the kitchen drinking tea,

the happy expression you gave twords me

as i told you tails from my dreams and day

you sat and listened and in

my mind, and in my heart those seconds of time,

make up for all the time apart

they were beautiful moments

where no one told us so,

how to be we were free to go...

i remember laying on the beach

the sand brusling my toes and the wind tickling my feet

and you siting there under the shade of a tree

watching and protecting me...

and that second i saw you seeing me,

it was a beautiful thing...

i remeber so many beautiful perfect seconds of time....

that i could begin to try and list them in this ryme...

but i do know,

that you showed me somethign true

that the memory of beauty

will carry me through, all the may times

and days and years

that you are not here to wipe away my tears....

as we age and begin to decay

its better to remeber the percet memory ofour best and most beautiful days...

shadows and blood ++

Come with me into the shadows of my soul,
find me there a broken doll
Lifeless and cold in the sunless world
Know then, the sun will never rise for us again
And we will spend an eternity here in the dark
I will call out,
But I will never hear you speak my name again
Alone in this cold world to far gone for anyone to save me
I will die this way
For ever forgotten to the world
For ever longing to reconnect
My soul is lonely now…

Come with me into the shadows of my past
find me there with paper skin
Threadbare and empty from to much use
Know then, I will have nothing left to sell
And I will spend an eternity dead inside my delicate frame
I will cry out
But no one will hear my words,
My lips to chapped and my heart to empty to put any life into my lungs.
I will die this way
For ever wishing I was still a poet
For ever dreaming I was still human
My past is empty now…

Come with me into the shadows of my dreams
find me there a child’s sand and glass castle
Shining and flawed in its construction
Know then, I will bring you to this place
And pan will piper us into a forever of illusion where nothing is real.
I will dream,
The darkest nightmare monsters to life…
And we will run forever from them just like I do from the white dragon.
I will die this way
For ever running from the daemons we cant see
For ever hiding under the blankets
My dreams are tainted now…

Come with me into the shadows of my blood,
Find me there a crying god
Rageful and loving in my completion
Know then, I will turn no other cheek
And I will spend forever wishing I had never chosen to with you
I will cut,
And violate my holy temple
Craving out pound after pound of flesh so that I can live a new life with out you.
I will die this way
For ever the only one with my name
For ever tied by contract to the darkest things
My blood is demonic now…

Come with me my child of a man into the shadows,
Look not back from where we began
For it no more is real to this world
Kiss my neck as I slide the needle into my vein
And watch me rattle as I die in your arms
You don’t know me now,
As I seek fill the void of my existence.

tears (a poem will sp latter)

lay here now sweet child
and be a man to me,
hold me now
in this second of inescapable vulnerability
i am weak against your touch
i am crippled in your eyes
and i am heartbroken in your lips.

i am nothing more than a frail doll
made of porcelain and paper mache.
i melt under the rain and i dry to cracking in the sun
so lay here with me
and never let me go.
keep then this memory for when your bruised and torn
keep all my love and horde it all away
because the sun is burning and a storm is on its way

Be a man sweet boy,
grow up now.
theirs no time left and its taken me this long somehow
to say the words
with my lips against your ear
I love you more than my self,
and I regret all my fears.
Hold me as I give my self to you,
In ways so much deeper than the skin
I will lay in your arms and let you watch me cry,
As I feel time is drawing to an end.

a dandylion war yet to be begun (a poem will sp latter)

bring me out into the sun
be the rain and the morning young
be my dreams that are coming true
and id regret that i am falling in love with you.
be the wish my lips do speak
and the lover who is strong but weak
take your hands and trace my skin
you are an artist
writing poetry of our sin
you are my muse my words and my soul
warped up in pleasures in the morning gold
you are the yes and not no and go
you are the everything that i do that's untold

and when the demons come and fight in
you are the voice that brings me back again
you were the memory that tied me to this world
and with out you i might be lost in the swirl
i want to hold you and kiss you again
i want your naked body melting against my skin
i want your sweat, your lust and your fuck
but more than that i want the sound of your love

I dream of your eyes stairing out in the cold
callign and beging me to unfold
I dream of your voice smiling to say
all the words that I dream I will hear one day.
I dream you think im beautiful
I dream you think im smart
I dream that you love me more than at the start
I dream your hands and I dream my skin
and when i wake i dream to find you again

rattle and shake, and break down the wall
you came at a bad time
and you saved us all
I was dieing and weak, i was scared and alone
I had given up on pleasure and happiness and gold
but now i am new and full of life
and you are the reason ive battles the strife
and who would have guessed it would come from a boy
so young and beautiful to cause so much joy

bring me out into the coming sun
let me rest and let me run
give me reasons to stay and i will never leave
i will hold you tight in my sleeve
and my heart will be yours,
if not in whole then in half
and that half will burn bright enough to last
till tomorrow and through today
and possibility even another day.

For you i would an anything
just be like the morning
and set me free to sing.

truffles and bon bons with a cup of tea

be the dreams of my world
the soft blanket of my nightmares
come and lay with me
in the soft bendy pipecleaner ocean
I will wisper secret desires
that come pouring out from my slumber
of sculpting and molding your body with my fingers
i will dive deep into the pools of your hands
and learn to swim a new...
be here as i charge forward into the forest
i never could see you from the trees
and now, i just want to know you.
for what ever that means

pipe cleaners

make me young again,
like i was long ago.
bring life into the dying soul
make the cliter clack of my yesterdays
the sound chiming mole
dig out and root up all the many dreams of gold.

make me vibrant again,
like i remember i was.
bring new rains to dry fields that can
grow grow grow.
the sound of new growth
brings laughter to my soul.

make me stay a wilder for ever
that i will never need to burn out
let me know, now in this moment
I chose to fight my way out!
I will not lay down
and take the coming tide,
I will move forward with power and stride
Oh my little fuzzy friend,
I promises its true,
Its sad it took me so long to remember you.

fire ready aim, the yellow morning

Be like the yellow lit morning in my mind
cream and cool my life
mix and stir making love an aromatic memorie
come to the morning dew,
kiss sweet a new the dandelion fields
of a checkered Cheshire cat.

riddle me 1000 probabilities
and i will solve out the 1000 ways
to gasp...
for life...
as i dive deep into a world which has not been.

rattled in tattled in yesterdays sin
i wait on the coming sun
which promises to make all the roses cry
in the bitter after frost of sensation.
fire, aim, ready
for this new life
for these brief moments
for all that will ever matter in this,
12 seconds of bliss.

run into the open arms of the long seconds of tomorrow
i will have you,
and you will have me.
and in the ever flowing chaos that is life,
be tomorrow for me tonight
and i will thank you.
kiss me gently,
and i will give you all the passion burning n my skin...
be for me the yellow lit morning and i will rise to meet you.

brownies from heaven and cookies from hell

like the yester-days-morrow,
kiss and kick me into the shapes of a man,
so i can love you my dearest song.
Build me for the wars to come
sing me for times to go
Charging over unsated dandelion fields.
I will love you,
My Sacred Goddess,
my forever moon and the tide who comes.
This place is so built of key strokes
and C litter clatter I can no more find the paths that Ive lost
And So no more can I be near you.
and time will come and pass as it goes
we will age and tell war story's of our forgotten woes
I will say one day i till take up again
the treasure fof my heart, the sword who slew them
all the things you were
And the things you dreamed,
The beatnik butter cups
And the dandelion savages
The raving bluebells
And the troll sunflowers
The wild tiger lilies
All come and gone before through you.
Lay down then at this Shrine Goddess and Song,
There is not end.
There is no other world
There is no heavens
There Is no choice….
I can not, not chose to not be Wrong.

16 words: from martin and shin

be as the BAT
perched there on the PILLAR of my youth
SPIKE and prod my heart
for FRIENDSHIP
EARWAX coded candle flames
nip and prick my fingers for HEALTH
burn away my skin like smoldering RUBBER
i want to be SIXTEEN again
not so ROOT bound in this pot
i want to dance on the pool TABLE
RUNNING away from all the tentacle monsters of my past
slurping NOODLES trying, crying to
remember all my many NAMES as i age
as i FUCK as i punch as i bite
not the pink POODLE princess anymore
i am only your SACRIFICIAL goddess

love me as you walk to dream

for all the sins of my past,
kiss me tight hold me fast
for all the wrongs of my mind
make me last know your mine
be like wind
be like air,
blow me dreams deep somewhere
be like you've always been
somewhere deep in my darkest sin
touch my body as i sleep,
blow my mind make me meek
tell me all the rules are wrong
break my heart so i'll grow strong
forever and a day you left
and would not let the lovers rest
jealousy and rage ensue
even when i never knew
and now your here next to me
whispering all the things i can not see
and now you here to touch my hand
even in some other land
bridge the darkness and share the pain
and all the world will be like rain
wash away tomorrows sin,
so we will be whole to start again.
You will be my eyes of night
shining in the ever bright
you will wake the sleeping dreams
that scream to remove my angel wings
we will fall to earth reborn even in a mortal form
and all the things we could not do,
you will whisper can be true.