look at me now

Look at me now
so graceful and full in my form.
Dancing for you even when you can not see
even when you do not know.
Look at me now,
better than I have ever been.
Built stronger in my will to be,
drunk full on the sweet leavings of wine
and dusted in the ever morning of the night.

Look at me now
so content in my skin
not locked in and chained up by my mortal seeming.
not bound in my desire to isolate my mind
not stuck in the darkness of my regret
I come now peeking over and bending,
That I, the goddess of my universe am due worship and pleasure.
Drink with me my lovers, my friends that we can be whole under the moon.
And I love you all,
because my heart is endless and eternal.

Look at me now
so happy living in my day to day
laughing playing and making light of the smaller things.
even when you are not here,
part of you is kept with me.
Even when you do not know,
I think softly of you.
Even when, in regret and fear I remember my distrust of you,
I smile thinking you will have the rest of my life to rebuild in me
if you chose to.
IF you wanted it.
If I meant enough to you.
I would always let you back in.

Look at me now,
see what you have done to me.
See what I am becoming now
as I have seen it
as you have told me
as I will continue.
with and without you.
for and in spite of you.
Because of all the things that were,
and because of everything that will never be.
My eyes are open now,
Look at me, as I can see in this vivid light.